your smile rescues me from the darkest night.=)

heard something that touched me to the core of my heart yesterday, and made me realise that i will hold on.

i hate lab la!

去哪里都好，只要是跟你一起去。

发泄在我身上是对的，只是要跟我说为什么你不开心。

这两句话温暖了我心田。让我每天多爱你一点=）

finally people can view my blog! =)

it's such a great leap of faith and a sign of true love when one person decides to put his/her happiness into another person's hands. i would be afraid that the person would have a change of heart, or the love will not last. i would be insecure too because the person is not a family member, someone who i've known almost all my life. that's why i guess marriage exists, to give a form to two person's love, and their commitment to each other to be together through thick and thin. that's why i think it's such good news to know that two people in love are willing to make this leap of faith and get married.

we didn't take much photos. and we all looked either so lazy or so bloated. unglamorous. but it was enough just to see them on a Saturday and catch up. =)

your warmth sustains me! see you gals soon!

i don't like living each day as it comes. there's no planning and i feel like i'm constantly struggling just to reach the mark. haiz.

mee pok
mee tai bak
i've just realised a noodle for a guy. and i don't like these noodles.

spending too much money.
not being serious.
being a sleepy pig.
watching vcd.
placing all else as more important.
jealousy.
unexplained moments of irritation.
& the list gets longer.

p.s. i can delete all the tech comm stuff! yay!!!

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释 低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白你已不想挽回什么


想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解 是怕 真相太赤裸裸
但被逼失去难受


我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
(谁记得)谁忘了


我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后
我记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥


谁爱的太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变执着
谁忘了要给你温柔

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以呢
没有哭
没有痛

tech comm presentation tomorrow! then can throw this module away! yay!! but there's the problem of bringing the clothes, cause there's lab tomorrow too! aiya, dun care!!

sometimes there are people who enter your life, and you know these people will soon fade out. i used to be sad about it, but now i think that there's nothing to lament about. perhaps it's meant to be like that, just having them as your acquaintances for a period of time, or for a purpose. i guess this is the underlying reason why i hate the word networking.

exams are nearing! oh gosh

i go to school in the morning, and come home at night. no motivation to study, just hell of a lot of stress.

抱紧我，再抱紧我，让我从你身上得到继续坚持的能量与勇气。

yay! got people volunteer want go taiwan with me! so happy! but a lot of things to settle, like accomodation, and tickets, itinery too!

got people complain cannot read my blog, hmm wonder what's wrong.

i feel loved. cause of all the small things =)

i'm amused that you're jealous. especially over such a non-threatening guy. especially when lately i realise how fortunate i am to love you

tech comm is finally going to be over soon! with one last presentation next week, i can finally clear my desktop, received files, hotmail inbox of all those stuff!! yay!

i am bored of school! help me!

有一点不知所措，也有一点提不起劲儿。厌倦这个感觉，却也想继续颓废。想暂且逃避，却得死硬着头皮面对。

想不顾一切奔向我的避风港。

sometimes bad things happen to pave the way for better things. but we are unable to see that, cause humans are by nature short-sighted and can only recognise this in hindsight. so most often, we wallow in sadness for a long time, before we realise that better things lie ahead. [of course, i'm not even referring to any god or divine power.]

i treasure what i have today, not only because they are what i want and love, but also because they are parts of my life and signify the processes and decisions i've gone through to grow up.

and hence, i have no regrets.

内心有一份不安，让我焦躁。虽然已经稍微被安慰，但还是觉得不够。也许是我野蛮，自私，但我要的其实也不过分。

tried to locate sharon's present to no avail! her list from internet pages that show products not yet released in Singapore!!

sometimes when i cant get something, i put on a facade and pretend that i want to push it away. just because that i don't want to be reminded that i can't have it.

school is giving me a perennial headache.

爱他那简单的执著。让我觉得在这个瞬息万变的世界里，他是唯一不变的依靠。

isn't that sweet? i believe simplicity is indeed happiness. =) may everybody find their own simple happiness!

不需要礼物来证明一个人的重要，甚至可以不用言语。每天发生的小事物也都能是表达爱的方式。

爱就是要让对方感受到，你在他身边。

my importance is in a drawer.

hate that the end of the semester is yet again approaching and i've lost all sense of motivation and direction.

oh well. plunder through, and maybe there'll be some miracle awaiting.

parents off to kelong saturday morning, and i didn't manage to say good night and good bye. what kind of daughter am i? but i hope they have fun! it's so hard for them to learn to throw the two of us behind and just have their own fun. =)

hate school work, hate my low productivity. but at least i finished. =)

Waiting is something i've yet been accustomed to do. I want things to happen now, patience is not my virtue. Time is too sneaky for me to believe in anything further than the next wk. (Tests and exams not inclusive)

And if you could, teach me how to resolve that knot in my heart. The part that mostly remains hidden but can still be felt.

ha! i remember i got something to blog about le! watched 300 yesterday at cineleisure. i expected it to be a gory bloody male movie. but i found something in it that touched me.

the spartans fought so bravely to protect their land and their love. they were willing to shed blood just not to kneel at the persian king's feet. that is something so honourable. they fought bravely even though they knew death would await them and even though they were so few in numbers.

i was also touched by the king and his queen's love. who wouldn't want to be loved with that same fierce intensity that when the end's near, the king fought only for the woman he loved. and they understood each other that everything can be left unsaid.

nice movie! but quite a number of flailing limbs and cut heads. =p

people i dislike generally fall into one category. they are usually people who've overstayed their welcome, and come to test my patience. i don't like people asking too much, talking about me as though they know me that well. in the first place, they do not have much business in my world, but if they are within my tolerable limit, i can let them be. but once they grate on my nerves, please do not expect gracious behaviour. of course, i'm not going to spew vulgarities, but it will nevertheless be obvious that you aren't welcome.

please don't test my tolerance.

haha nothing to blog. =p test again tmr!

seems like the whole world is sick of singapore. maybe it's cause i see mindan having fun sightseeing and trying new things in vienna. but i know it's not easy for her to be in a new environment without old friends around. or maybe it's cause i don't want to study, just want to run away. but i must patiently wait till holidays arrive.

i don't have the courage or the dream to go on an exchange. i wouldn't dare leave so many people behind and brave it out alone. i wouldn't be enthusiastic about making friends in a foreign land.

lazy to conclude nicely, let me just exclaim:i want to go taiwan!!!

today i finally gave out what i bought long ago to celebrate a certain special day. i think i kept it for 2 years already. did not give out before this due to the words printed within. always felt that they didn't fit. but now, i am certain the words reflect my true feelings. so i'm happy today, though it's late, but i mean it.

like md's post. as we pass through uni, it's true we get to know who is an acquaintance and who is a friend. sometimes the person doesn't turn out to be what your first impression says, but it's all a learning process. and somehow, because of the lessons learnt, i learn to treasure all my dearest friends most. the ones who've always been there. =)

quiz tomorrow! oh no! haha

oops. gave out seems wrong choice of words. more like i left it in an obscure corner to be discovered. lol

this coming week is a tough week, if i manage to survive past wednesday, i shall play mahjong on saturday. hmm then again, it seems suicidal, cause i would have to rush the incomplete portion of my report again.

oh well, please kill me.

hey! i miss you.

received a surprise call from jarrod, asking when we free to go out for a gathering. haha yay! hopefully i can leave sat free. =)

wondering stupid questions like should i have a birthday chalet? would i regret if i don't have one? it's like one of the rituals of growing up.. but the idea that my parents suggested, going overseas for my birthday sounds so nice too.. haha

tech comm report still undone! grr

struggled to complete CH2040 tutorial and lab yesterday. met a lot of problems, but it generally was a good day. comfortable and happy.

didn't sleep well these few days, but for that short while yesterday, i fell asleep almost as soon as i snuggled into the warmth of the bed. it's a good feeling! =)

recess week is almost over!! lots of stuff that still needs to be done!!

hong has spreaded her nostalgia to me.

i don't really have that many photos with 2b people, but i remember jolly good times together. contented to eat mee pok after playing basketball, the guys have essentially remained the same all these years. but they've also surprised me. they are super duper talking crap kings, and they have a sentimental side that i never saw before.

that day when i asked weili to walk me home, and he immediately stood up to go, i was touched. more touched when guangyang silently pulled on his shoes too. i've forgotten how close i was to them, yinjie too, those stayovers at my house.

truth is, i think the cny gatherings are too much trouble for my parents. but my parents glimpsed how important this annual ritual is to me, and to the 2b people too. and so they indulge me, this one day in 365 days where we eat and spend one entire day together. i shall strive to continue this tradition till i get married. and after that, i cant guarantee. hahaha.

i do love these boys and girls.

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁

你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

Tank-专属天使 i love the lyrics!!